I haven't made a post in a while. I feel like i need to let a lot of things out right now so i'm using this blog to vent because i have no where else to and i just love this blog even though i don't update it properly. I've been watching a lot of movies lately, Nick and Norahs infinite playlist being one of the ones i have connected with, i liked Remember Me but it was a little to deep for my situation. So on my other blog (www.breakmybones.tumblr.com) i have talked to people from everywhere in this world, England, Mexico, Singapore, Australia. The last one being my favorite because it's this guy named Ben. And though he's a year younger than me i believe and still in high school, i'm intensely attracted to him. Emotionally, sexually, physically (not in every sense of the word because we live on two different ends of the earth) just everything about him is what i want right now. how he tells me i'm beautiful, and that when he talks to me he's happy. i feel like an idiot when i talk to him, or when i wait till 4:00 am so i can talk to him on msn, but isn't that how crushes are suppose to make you feel...like a complete and total idiot, like you won't be able to sleep until you talk to them. I know it may seem unrealistic but i want to be with him, i want just everything with him. We've talked about it and just a long distance realtionship can not happen...i wouldn't mind one, but i think he's scared that i'll cheat on him. and i'm scared he'll cheat on me. He's a day ahead of me and i wouldn't even be able to sleep if i knew he was like out and stuff. It's a completely foolish relationship or whatever it is we have going on here. but i love it. everything he tells me, and the things he wishes he could do with me, i'm just here eating it all up for the moment. I've had relationships, i've had sex... but i've never had conversations with a guy like the ones i've had with him. And i'd rather have sex with a guy that knows how to keep a conversation interesting than a guy that knows how to make me orgasm, though i think ben could probably do both... lol.

arggggg i hate distance and  hate time and i hate that it seperates us from things we've never had before. but i'm going to make it last for as long as i can...if anything i'll be able to say i have an amazing friend i know in australia <3 :]

I've been gone to to longgg!

I'm back! My last post was WAY before christmas! Woah! So since then Christmas and New Years have passed! For Christmas i actually got EVERYTHING i wanted! My coach purse is probably the best one that i got! I posted a picture in one of my older blog posts, check it out! and i got this jewlery box, but it's huge! So needless to say it's filled with all of my jewlery! My sister bought me some really cute berrets from Forever21 and though i've only worn one i plan on wearing the sparkly one soon. i also got another Audrey Hepburn picture. Oh and uhhh-mazing bedding from Target, it's this faux lace pattern and has teal lining and it's sooo pretty! I'm done with pink girly stuff, onto sophisticated womanly things ;]. I also got tons of lady things from Victorias Secret! I got the makeup brushes i've been asking for and a new CHI iron, it's purple with pink sparkly polka dots! so cute! And then New Years Eve came around. Me and my bestfriend where planning on going to a club for the first time but the truth is...we where soooo scared! We are so silly! but we're good girls and never have been to a club before so we just opted to going to a friends party on the FAR east side of town. So we show up and there's nothing but boys! YAY! :) haha but yeah it was another 7 hours of beer pong, pool playing, shot taking, counting down, kissing, fun times haha! Thank god i didn't drink to much cuz i sobered up before we went home and apparently there were tons of check points! yikes! but i made it home safely! and it was so much fun ! i loveeeee this new year! so much to look forward to! It's already the end of January though! ahhhh! crazy! but i'm so looking forward to spring break! so stoked so hopefully i'll be posting more often ;]!

xoxoxo
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